gained and lost...

GAINED? = WEIGHT

LOST? now thats a more complicated question.

well yes technically while i've been here i've gained more than weight as described by my last post. But good god have u seen my cheeks lately? =S Leo how can you love me with such fat cheeks and hips? grrr...

But on to more serious topics of conversation... well i don't really know whether i should consider this a conversation but whatever it is... i was looking through some photos of events that have happened at home since i left... and just realized... exactly how much i've missed out on somethings that have happened in the lives of some of the people i love...

with that... i say...


to my dear cousins... with all my heart and soul i wish you both a happily ever after...



and to you boys... i wish i was there to see you grow up... but i know you've been well taken care of...

and know that i miss you all...


Lots of love,
Kirsty.


p.s. i know i started this as an anonymous blog... but who am i kidding right? loves.

Its been so long??!!??

come to think of it... yes it has been so long... 26th of October 2008 was the date of my last post... and it is now the 8th of April 2009...

Funny how things have changed yet remained the same...

I believe i have changed... I think i have changed... But I guess this is a result of the things that i've experienced in the past few months... half a year almost! Taking it all in... I've had some major ups and downs in the past 6 months.

Directing and writing a sell out musical play... hmmm... yeah i did that.

Learning a new skill which I'd be able to take with me for the rest of my life... And maybe turn it into a hobby if I have the time and money... hehe! yeah i did that.

Winning the University Moot competition... errr... i don't really know how still, and there is question as to whether i deserve it or not amongst friend and foe... but like a very close friend and partner said... "out of 32 contestants in the University in 2008/2009, you were the best... it doesn't matter what happened before or what happens after... this year... a Crown Court judge had decided that you were the best...." hell yeah i can live with that!!!

ooohh!! got into the BVC!!! wooppeee!! =)

I've met more people, been more places, learnt from them, made new friends, felt and expressed myself in ways that I have never done... Dreamed some new dreams... Had new nightmares... and most of all... learnt new lessons which i will perhaps take with me to the end of my life...

Well its not fair if i do not mention these people... the MSSCF committee 2008/2009... i've learnt so much more from you guys than i ever thought i would... the experiences good and bad have been chalked up as some of the best experiences in my university days... and i will never forget each and every one of you...

and last but not least... the boy... hehe... all i can say is he makes me smile... and shy sometimes. :)


well... its the last stretch now... then... well its another chapter of my life... siiigghhh... miss miss... i'm gonna miss this... :)


XoXo
Kirsty

(see even my sign off has changed =p)

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when people talk about you behind your back... you can feel their words like a fork stabbing at your lower back... brutal... yes...

someones got to let the anger run...

all of us have to make mistakes which we look back... and think... gosh... i was sooo stupid... i might regret that for the rest of my life...

and then we have the one or the other... you'll never really know whether it all went wrong until its too late now isn't it???

the cliche of being alone giving you time to think is really heartbreaking... especially when u think what ur doing is the act of a complete slut...

hence making you want to bury yourself in a truckload of work and company and never ever ever feel...

Imagine...

I got 'poisoned' into listening to this song more carefully...

with the many references to christianity i thought it would be a song about jesus christ or something but... once i read a few forums and listened to it myself...

this was the picture painted in my head...

just imagine...

A King.


A great King, powerful if not great... So great his enemies shuddered before him.

But ironically, with great power, comes the need for great inner strength to not use it to corrupt...

A strength which he failed to muster i suppose...

So like all great Kings, our King fell... Overthrown and tossed out into the streets...

And the revolutionaries who plotted this seizure of power tell the people their old King is dead...

So our once great King listens to his own people celebrate his own 'death' and the rise of a new King while he sweeps the streets...

Now our King is no fool, and not dillusioned either i suppose... He knows he won't survive very long on the streets, he'll most probably die soon...

But even as he prays to his God for strength, courage and mercy;

He knows, looking back on his conduct as King, that he will never be admitted into 'heaven' by those who guard it...

If you look at the video I think Coldplay has tried to make the entire video look like an old painting... which is way cool actually...

As a disclaimer i know nothing about English or European history, so that depiction up there is a picture which i found... fitting... for my version of the story...

So now when i listen to this song... i just close my eyes... and IMAGINE.


p.s. I know there have been people who have said that its about themselves and their own experience with the bad side of fame... and some more about the French revolution... but i like my interpretation thank you very much and it don't have to make sense to you... just to me. :)

sometimes i look back at what might have been...

today was one of those days...





you know... i can't believe i cried...

but then again... those people on the screen were living my dream...

ahhh... the road not taken...

such horrid timing when i should really be focusing on the path i did choose...




in retrospect...

i think i took the easier way out...

made everyone except myself completely happy...

to be fair i can hardly imagine my life without my present position...

i don't regret it don't get me wrong...

but there are times when i still dream...

well... you know what they say about roads not taken...

take a vacation to the other side of the wall sometimes...

might do you good...




my vacation??? hehehe... probably coming up next year in february... watch out for it!! i'm excited already!!!

taken directly from my old blog...

for days when i feel... dark...

this song was and still is my muse...

"The Sharpest Lives" by My Chemical Romance




ahhh... how darkness consumes...

87 plus one...

(edit... change of name by popular demand)




the dawn of a new era...

say hello to the Malaysian Students Society of Cardiff Committee 2008/2009...


come on people lets do this!!!

After exams la... HEHE!!