blank.

when people talk about you behind your back... you can feel their words like a fork stabbing at your lower back... brutal... yes...

someones got to let the anger run...

all of us have to make mistakes which we look back... and think... gosh... i was sooo stupid... i might regret that for the rest of my life...

and then we have the one or the other... you'll never really know whether it all went wrong until its too late now isn't it???

the cliche of being alone giving you time to think is really heartbreaking... especially when u think what ur doing is the act of a complete slut...

hence making you want to bury yourself in a truckload of work and company and never ever ever feel...

Imagine...

I got 'poisoned' into listening to this song more carefully...

with the many references to christianity i thought it would be a song about jesus christ or something but... once i read a few forums and listened to it myself...

this was the picture painted in my head...

just imagine...

A King.


A great King, powerful if not great... So great his enemies shuddered before him.

But ironically, with great power, comes the need for great inner strength to not use it to corrupt...

A strength which he failed to muster i suppose...

So like all great Kings, our King fell... Overthrown and tossed out into the streets...

And the revolutionaries who plotted this seizure of power tell the people their old King is dead...

So our once great King listens to his own people celebrate his own 'death' and the rise of a new King while he sweeps the streets...

Now our King is no fool, and not dillusioned either i suppose... He knows he won't survive very long on the streets, he'll most probably die soon...

But even as he prays to his God for strength, courage and mercy;

He knows, looking back on his conduct as King, that he will never be admitted into 'heaven' by those who guard it...

If you look at the video I think Coldplay has tried to make the entire video look like an old painting... which is way cool actually...

As a disclaimer i know nothing about English or European history, so that depiction up there is a picture which i found... fitting... for my version of the story...

So now when i listen to this song... i just close my eyes... and IMAGINE.


p.s. I know there have been people who have said that its about themselves and their own experience with the bad side of fame... and some more about the French revolution... but i like my interpretation thank you very much and it don't have to make sense to you... just to me. :)

sometimes i look back at what might have been...

today was one of those days...





you know... i can't believe i cried...

but then again... those people on the screen were living my dream...

ahhh... the road not taken...

such horrid timing when i should really be focusing on the path i did choose...




in retrospect...

i think i took the easier way out...

made everyone except myself completely happy...

to be fair i can hardly imagine my life without my present position...

i don't regret it don't get me wrong...

but there are times when i still dream...

well... you know what they say about roads not taken...

take a vacation to the other side of the wall sometimes...

might do you good...




my vacation??? hehehe... probably coming up next year in february... watch out for it!! i'm excited already!!!

taken directly from my old blog...

for days when i feel... dark...

this song was and still is my muse...

"The Sharpest Lives" by My Chemical Romance




ahhh... how darkness consumes...

87 plus one...

(edit... change of name by popular demand)




the dawn of a new era...

say hello to the Malaysian Students Society of Cardiff Committee 2008/2009...


come on people lets do this!!!

After exams la... HEHE!!

ITS A HARD KNOCK LIFE...

when i say friendship you say????

hmm??

is that a yeah i heard??? well well... i suppose the truth of the matter is that nowadays... friendships... good ones are hard to come by...

and even the good ones don't tend to stick nowadays...

but to me... that does not discount all the good times that we have shared as friends...

sure she told on you a year after...
and yes... maybe he did tell your crush that you liked him/her...

as much as these events may have marred the relationship... it does not... and will not take away the laughter and smiles once shared....


i'm not preaching forgiveness...

hell people who know me will tell you that i do not forgive easily at all...

all i'm saying is that we should always remember the times we have shared with other people... because i believe... a person... anyone who crosses paths in their lives... only if for a few seconds... will create an imprint in our paths of life...

remember that guy who told u that you had a nice butt??? (did wonders for my self asteem when i was feeling down)

and that woman who smiled at you when you gave her way at a junction??? (made you feel like you did a good deed for the day)

well...

i've met some amazing people in the past few weeks... i bet u know who you are you HUJAN darlings... ***hugggssss***

people whom i hope i'll keep in touch n stay friends with for the longest of times...

we all came from different backgrounds yet similar worlds...

but not once did that ever come in the way of us getting to know each other better...

this project (my dear ahmad shakiran & team), with or without regards to its financial positions... is.... in my eyes a success...

because it is through this project... that we all learned responsibility, friendship, kindness, respect and ambition...

i'll never forget the Easter holidays of 2008...

and i'll most definitely.. not forget all of you...





thank you. thank you all. =)